Boredom, Music, Reading, Chatting, Movies, Thoughts & Pheinallyyy Blogging!

Well the title was again to be cool, I just again saved a Unpublished thing, thinking not the right time and right way!

Read two blogs of my few author friends, both totally opposite though! Anyway what brings me here is my hobbie and a piece of advice from a old pal!

When you are low JUST WRITE what you feel,So I am blogging! But, I am not low, Its for taking things out of mind shadowed and society feared Heart to just accept what it feels!It feels I am not me, or I have never been in this compromising situation ever! Feels Loner all while!

Or I just can't be Happy or say satisfied.

Talking to my Old friend days back, I told her when you envy people doing good, enjoying ( in a positive way) all you want to do is do something you're good at, or what gives you satisfaction, So I Started Penning down a story! Tried it time back too! Just after giving it a start, It feels, I lost The capability to write anything or I never had it!

Like a while ago I think I had so much to write, and now nothing! This happens a lot! And In order to cover What I do is just speak Irrelevant  Shit!

Well Whatever, This Shall too pass by!

Actually It feels incomplete! I miss myself!I miss friends here in this place, which is still new for me after 3 years.Had Some people around this while, Some left the town, for Some I was too mean and break ups with some! And with some the Trauma, Does that ever happened to you too, when you try not to be judgmental about some persons, They turn out to be judging you, and in order to please them you be the one, You're not.? You all the time feel that's worth nothing! But For finding reason to make it worth, as of all the time, I tell myself, Its a learning, a testing phase.

It feels that I can never have friends, with these I mean the ones without any mean, ( chalo, thoda toh level ho :D ), amean don't haunt . I guess I am too bad in keeping pals!

The loneliness, or habit of being with people has disillusioned my brain, & It contaminates my heart with restlessness! Sometime It feels that these venomous spiders are just crawling up to me! Those are the time when the most wonderful creation of GOD, music comes as a Superhero to me! Thanks ALMIGHTY!

Getting Some new people in life in past six months,with a hope, They are good at heart I feel, They are cool , they are cute but the unconditional trust is what still I wanna put in!

And  Gwalior and my teenage, no matter how much I curse you, I miss you! You gave The deepest friends, memories and cuts!

Finally They Fit to Something.

Why I write this, just to make myself realize that no matter what costume you wear, the inner self remains the same, I remain a loner as of now, as I guess it was the only love I had that was not One sided!

It turned out to be all about my boring shit, though of random title, apologies for that, but thats kinda me!

By the way One other pal says, Don't write, You will be sadder, the more you write.  He is right, But It satisfies me, It feels light!

Thanks for bearing!

Abhiram